the devilish angel

A R I E S woman

2007-11-12T00:15:00.000-08:00

Romance is something that no Aries can live without and the same goes for an Aries woman also. However, for her, not getting on without romance is not same as not being able to live without a man. In her heart, she will always be yearning for that someone special, thinking about him in the monsoon and that will be her idea of romance. She doesn't need a real man for it. Aries female is the one who will do anything and everything herself, without needing any male help. One of her basic personality traits is total confidence in her abilities.

She has to lead, to be the first one to do anything. At times, her independence does not go well with the male ego. However, an Aries girl never wants a puppy for a lover or a husband. She seeks a man, but not the one who constantly chases her. The best way to woo her is to throw subtle hints, be a little detached and keep her wondering. Give her the impression that you can resist her charms and she will come rushing to you, to prove that she's desirable. Aries women will never have to yearn for male attention.

They always get plenty of it, but inside they will be waiting for the one they cannot have. An Aries woman can survive even the toughest of circumstances alone and has the ability to come back even after the most gruesome tragedies. She can play the role of a female perfectly and, at the same time, can do everything that a man can do. If you have managed to subdue her aggressive drive, you will be treated to a woman who is full of optimism and has such faith in future that can uplift your mood also.

An Aries female does not like flattery. You should be sincere while complimenting her. Over-sweetness and too much closeness can make her run away, but she doesn't want you to be too detached also. You'll have to maintain that delicate balance and still keep the romance alive. Once she has committed to you, she will be extremely sentimental and very loyal. Don't dominate an Aries female and don't let her dominate you. Either of the extremes, she will not be able to tolerate. Give her reasons to be proud of you, but do not forget to praise her for her talent too. Her expectations are too high, but she will also give you double in return.

She is very possessive and love is something she can never share. She can be very jealous even at the slightest of suspicion. In case you have a female secretary, it is better to bid her good bye right now. If an Aries girl gets hurt, she will become as cold as the ice in your fridge and this behavior may last an entire lifetime. She is generous to the faults of her loved ones and it is better not to criticize them in front of her. On the other hand, if you are good to her, she will be extremely kind, tender, loyal and supportive

You will get plenty of reasons to be jealous when you are with an Aries female, since she is more comfortable with men than women. However, don't be suspicious of her, she would be really hurt. She is possessive, but she doesn't like to be possessed. She wants her freedom and your complete trust. Remember, if she's committed to you, you have no reasons to doubt her loyalty and sincerity. An Aries woman is much too truthful to be involved with two people at the same time. She will first break up the relationship that is not working.

She is extremely passionate and believes in forever-lasting relationships. Though, this leaves her disillusioned many a times. She will never play games with you and is incapable of deceit. An Aries girl is nothing if not simple, innocent and very emotional. Maximum chances are that she will continue her career even after marriage. She loves challenges and believes in miracles. Though it sounds a little freaky, but miracles do happen in her case. Just like a typical Aries, she never learns from her mistakes and is likely to fall in the same hole again.

For her love means sharing and that means sharing everything, right from her emotions and checkbook to your bank account. Always respect an Aries woman and never try to dampen her zeal, or she will be hurt. Though she tries to show that she is very strong, she is as innocent and as vulnerable as a baby. Be there to comfort her when she runs up to you after being disappointed with the world. If you stand up to her when she comes to you like this, you will never ever lose her. An Aries female will never forgive you if you fail to fight for her.

In return, she will always be there with you, even if she has to go against the whole world. She is not the one to feign illness, but if she is really ill, be there to care for her. She is quite extravagant and giving her the debit cards will mean an empty bank account. She will be a caring mother, who makes no unnecessary fuss and sparks children's imagination. An Aries girl has a bad temper, but it will go away as quickly as it came and leave no grudges behind. She is a complete woman, who gets hurt easily and is totally innocent. Though she is a little impulsive and bossy, she will give you complete security, fight against the world for you and be yours forever!

What Actually Love Is

2007-11-04T02:38:00.000-08:00

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep?

When we cry?

When we imagine?

When we kiss?

This is because the most beautiful things in the world are unseen.

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love. There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world, it's the beginning of a new life.

Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched their lives.

A great love?

It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when he ignores you and still you long for them. It's when he begins to love another and yet you still smile and say I'm happy for you.

If love fails, set yourself free. Let your heart spread its wings and fly again. Remember you may find love and lose it but when love dies, you never have to die with it. The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall.

Somehow along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize there should never be regrets; only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made.

A true friend understands when you say, I forgot, waits forever when you say, just a minute, stays when you say leave me alone, opens the door even before you knock and says can I come in?

Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.
It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever.

In love, very rarely do we win but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself. There comes a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that they'd be happier if we let go.

It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available. Best to wait for the one you love than one who is around. It’s best to wait for the ‘right one’ because life is too short to waste on ‘just someone’.

Sometimes the one you love turns out to be the one who hurts you the most, and sometimes the friend who takes you into his arms and cries when you cry turns out to be the love you never knew you wanted. If you really love someone, never let go. Don't believe that letting go means that you love best. Instead fight for your love, that's what true love is.

Laugh to your heart's content; you cannot go through life without it.

I personally think it's so true. But then again, everyone has their own personal opinions. Though... a bizarre thought - I don't think one can actually say what love actually is. It's too deep an emotion to be expressed in words. It can only be felt. And sometimes, we realize all too late, that perhaps we've fallen in love - and there's nothing we can do about it.

Then again, sometimes we believe like we've found love, but we don't realize it actually wasn't love until we find our true love. And how do you know you've found your true love? Right after you're hurt, after you find pain in their pain. Happiness in their happiness and your life in their eyes.

When A Girl...

2007-11-04T02:04:00.000-08:00

"When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running in her mind.

When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a girl answers I'm fine after a few seconds, she's not at all fine!

When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are lying.

When a girl lays on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl wants to see you everyday, she wants to be pampered.

When a girl says 'I love you', she means it.

When a girl says 'I Miss You', no one in this world can miss you more than that."

p/s: i also think it is so damn true.

Kau Bunuh Cintaku Dengan Kasihmu

2007-10-27T04:14:00.000-07:00

¾ daripada hidup saya setiap hari terasa begitu pedih.

Dan kehilangan.

Kata seorg teman, mata saya sarat dengan rahsia yang enggan dilepaskan. Senyuman dan gelak ketawa saya bagaikan tiada jiwa kerana walau sekuat mana sekalipun saya menggembirakan hati bila berhibur bersama teman-teman, mata saya berkata sebaliknya.

Sememangnya mata saya tidak pandai berbohong.

Ada yang cuba mengorek rahsia. Ada yang menawarkan diri utk membelasah lelaki yang telah merobek hati saya. Ada juga yang menawarkan cinta. Maaf; tiada rahsia yang dapat saya kongsikan. Tiada juga kambing hitam untuk dijadikan belasahan. Dan kepada pencinta, saya tidak pernah menolak apalagi menerima. Hanya saya pohon waktu dan pengertian. Saya sudah letih mencuba.

Saya menjadi merpati; sangat menyenangkan untuk didampingi. Apatah lagi jika teman saya itu suka berbicara dan luas pengetahuan dan pengalamannya. Kami duduk berbual sehingga ‘di halau’ kerana waktu operasi premis itu sudah lama tamat. Dan setiap kali perkenalan seperti itu melepasi tahap pertama, saya akan menjauhkan diri.

Kenapa?

Kerana saya tidak menginginkannya.

Mengapa?

Kerana hati saya merindui ‘dia’.

‘Dia’ yg membuatkan saya mengerti apa itu rindu. ‘Dia’ yang bisa meninggalkan rasa pedih yang menusuk tangkai hati setiap kali saya menyebut namanya. Dia yg pasti akan menghubungi saya dengan hanya memikirkan tentangnya. ‘Dia’ yg memberikan perasaan kaku dan malu setiap kali kami bertemu.

Dan kini selepas 7 tahun, ‘dia’ masih lagi membuat saya ‘sentap’ bila sekali sekala kami berkesempatan utk bertemu, dia banyak berubah. 7 tahun tempohnya. Bila sudah jarang bertemu, gambaran yg kekal dlm ingatan saya ialah semasa awal perkenalan kami. Membuatkan ‘dia’ yg berdiri di depan saya kelihatan asing.

Kali terakhir saya bertemu dengannya beberapa bulan yg lalu, saya terkaku seketika semasa ‘dia’ menyambut saya. Tapi bila saya pejamkan mata, mendengar setiap tutur bicara dan merasa gerak-gerinya dengan hati, saya tahu dialah orangnya; lelaki yang tanpa niat dan sedarnya mencuri hati saya.

Buat ‘dia’ yg saya kasihi.

Sesungguhnya masa saya seakan-akan terhenti setiap kali kita ucapkan selamat jalan.

Sesungguhnya jika hati itu boleh dikembalikan, pulangkanlah pada saya. Jika tidak, doakan yang terbaik buat saya. Mudah-mudahan diberikan juga ketenangan agar saya dapat menjalani kehidupan dengan lebih bermakna.

Sesungguhnya …

Arrrggghhhh....

2007-10-27T04:01:00.000-07:00

Sekali lagi hati saya remuk redam kerana tiada kesempatan untuk menonton Teater Muzikal Malaysia. Pegalaman menonton muzikal CATS (VCD… excuse me) dan STOMP amat menguja. Selepas PGL (dan beberapa teater muzikal lain selepasnya) kini Remy…P.Ramlee sekali lagi menguji keinginan dan kesabaran saya.

Bukan penampilan Siti Nurhaliza yang menarik keinginan saya untuk ke Istana Budaya tetapi usaha seluruh krew penerbitan dan pementasan Tiara Jaquelina yang meraih perhatian saya.

Argghhh… Kalaulah tiada kekangan masa.

Youtube, anyone?

Cilok.
http://mstar.com.my/cms/content.jsp?id=com.tms.cms.article.Article_b65719c8-c0a85062-1e6f6780-166be3d5

Disclaimer @ Penafian

2007-10-21T05:30:00.001-07:00

salam.

Pada mulanya tulisan dalam blog ini ditulis dengan dengan kata ganti diri pertama; AKU. Santai dan peribadi. Itulah trend blog; pengisian dan pendekatan blog mencerminkan idealisme pemiliknya.

Selepas membaca posting terdahulu berulang kali, rupa2nya “AKU” sudah tidak sinonim dgn hidup penulis. “AKU” terlalu jauh dari pendekatan yang dipegang oleh penulis dalam menjalani kehidupan sehariannya.

“AKU” begitu solid dan kental sentimen peribadinya. Sempadannya tegar apabila devilish_angel sendiri sudah mula belajar merobohkan ‘pagar’ yang sering membuatnya menjadi jumud dan rigid dalam mentafsir ‘tanda’ dan makna.

Biarlah… “AKU”, ‘pagar’, ‘sempadan’, ‘tanda’ dan makna, waima papan tanda atau penanda wacana sekalipun, biarlah blog ini ditulis dengan kata ganti diri SAYA. Bezanya mungkin sekadar satu huruf tetapi yang penting saya harus selesa menulis.

Loya? Sabar dulu.

Raya 2007!

2007-10-17T23:45:00.000-07:00

salam.

raya tahun nih aku balik kampung selepas 6 tahun aku buat2 lupa nak balik.

nape? biarlah rahsia.